WOAH MUM HAVE YOU BEEN TALKING TO BRUCE & OLD ENGLISH DAVE ?!

i'm frightened by:
- large birds' shadows overhead, when you're not quite sure where the beast actually is
- that back-ward playing of songs, sometimes coined 'backmasking', that reveals secret/accidental (aaalways satanic i swear!!) messages (youtube videos of backmasking always seem to use Stairway to Heaven as an example of this)
- kids/babies screaming/talking/group-singing in songs (hello radiohead, pnau, justice, avalanches, michael jackson, every artist in the world using a sample of this in at least one of your songs that could have been amazing otherwise)
- maybe finding a/the special person semi-accidentally after years of half-arsed searching,
- nick cave. he amazes me, i feel really vulnerable around (the sounds of) that man - he seems so ridiculously powerful and wise and grizzly-bear-growling. i think i'd run to mars (run?) and back if he told me to :s

i finally voted for the triple j all-time hottest 100 tonight,
i'd compiled a list of 10 tracks the other day..and that had been really difficult. i don't want to sound cliche and 'omg i just have sooooo many fave songgssss liiiike it was just reaaaally hard to pick just deux'.. but 10 is hard !
initially i had brought it down to the perfect 15, but 5 had to go..which hurt.
haha.
i ended up getting rid of ones that made me nostalgic but hadn't actually impacted me or made me take a step back and go 'wow' orrr approach someone/a topic in a different way than i had before hearing/reading up on the meaning behind that song.
for eg., i culled songs like Teenage Dirtbag and Freestyler - songs that played a fairly huge part in my childhood, but aren't really that special in the great scheme of things.

BUT the one song that i would have loved to have squeezed on is Fred Jones Part 2 by Ben Folds; it's really devastating. Cigarette by Ben Folds, written a few years earlier is pretty short, lasting only a little over a minute, but it speaks of the same Fred Jones character and is as equally saddening and guilt-inducing, and as equally simple ! ..just bennie and his piano really.
i was contemplating putting After All These Years by Silverchair on too, bc the album Diorama got flogged in my house for a couple of years, and i love that simple little sad piano song too, but it got removed from my shortlist in the end.

SO i ended up voting for THESE songs;
1. CROWDED HOUSE - Don't Dream It's Over
2. RADIOHEAD - Pyramid Song
3. COLDPLAY - Shiver
4. BEN FOLDS FIVE - Brick
5. JEFF BUCKLEY - Lover, You Should've Come Over
6. AVALANCHES - Frontier Pyschiatrist
7. ELLIOTT SMITH - I Didn't Understand
8. JOHN BUTLER TRIO - Pickapart
9. BEN FOLDS - One Angry Dwarf and 200 Solemn Faces
10.EDITORS - Smokers Outside the Hospital Doors

old buckie pulled out the top spot for me, (my ten songs weren't ordered from best to tenth-best or anything, i just pulled them out in the order that they'd been written in on the hand-written list i'd made as songs occurred to me/i went through my music library) simply bc it's my favourite song. ever.
he repeats himself amazingly, and makes that a brilliantly okay thing to do.
how emotional are the lines: (and i think i've actually included them in a blog before ?)
- my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder
- all my riches for her smiles when i slept so soft against her
- all my blood for the sweetness of her laughter
- she's the tear that hangs inside my soul forever
god, jeffrey ! you're the tear that hangs inside OUR collective soul/s forever, poor poor boy.

oh, and, i would have like to have voted for some Magic Dirt or PJ Harvey orrr even the PJ/Thom Yorke collab orrrr even any radiohead song. god. all gorgeous.

because i'm a spazmo and never finish anything, i started a dress with leftover material the other day..i think it was during exam week last week but really can't recall exactly which day..
stupid me ran out of material after making half of a half haha so i guess i'll be going super assymetrical or something..but i shouldn't even worry about that..as if i'll ever complete it..that's clearly not how i do.:
it's pretty hard to make out but is really just layer upon layer of bulk gathered-frill action and due to the gathering and stupid hand-sewing skills of mine, it took hours. like 3/4..and you can't tell that in the least, which is a little annoying.
the blue material is stretch which was a poor choice for a gown ish-type garment, but that material was just lying around so i thought i'd put it to good use. it did drape really naturally cool at the bottom though, which was one pro i guess.



on the same day i was feeling a little rodarte-esque i suppose and had a little weaving/knitting session. this took about 1-2 hours..bc i'm slow. but i think once it's started it doesn't take as long.

i'm hoping to make a scarf out of materials like this - a really holey one..but i think that may be a little wasted - our cold snap for the yr seems to be over already ? far out brussel.


wow, feels like i have so much to report on..
i finished this off a couple of weeks ago for art at school:

it was supposed to be a (cow's) skull with a little flower at the top - to speak about the way beauty can be drawn from simple/raw things and also about the way in which there is often beauty in the things that people automatically assume are ugly. (eg. bones, skulls, etc)
(the flower = beauty, but i think that is assumed almost in this instance ? hope so.)
it's just graphite/pencil sketch-work with some brown cheap watercolour over the top to bring out some of the shaded sections..
it looks a tiiiny bit better in real life, pretty crap/small photo qual here..but you don't really want to see it up-close hehe, too many bloopers.

i've got some less than exciting fashn sketches to post soon, but they can surely wait.
if you've read this far, i have a huge lot of respect for you, and owe you a fair bit of time..
goodnight, loves.