6 foot 7 inch jewish cat named kurtzneil will freestyle rap for cash.

i found a whole heap of zines and free fashion/ep-launch magazines/flyers that i'd picked up in brisbane this time last year, and found one that i'd never really read. the male model in it was named Felix which was cute enough to begin with, but i also found a v great description for a clothing label:

'they're [the two male designers] still doing skateboards too, but they wanted to get into the fashion industry to hang out with the hottest girls. they think fly-fishing is a great hobby.

Wear it if You: also think Heath Ledger is absolutely murderising as the Joker.

Dress to Impress: your asian girlfriend's big brother and parents.'

hahaha absolute hole in one, am i right ? made me giggle a little.

i over-heard my art teacher talking to a girl in the back of the class in a lesson a few weeks back and just remembered this morning what she'd said. i wrote it down so i won't forget, her words really made me think.

she was talking about balance, and that if you don't like an artwork that you've done, it could be bc of the lack of balance. she said not to change everything in it, just take away one thing and add one thing.

it's also a mini-philosophy that she lives her life by.

when you're not happy with your life, she said that you should take away one thing that's not working and replace it with one good thing, to achieve balance in your life. i really love that.

for a secret reason, a few days ago, my moods were a little exaggerated. i'd get super excited or find things extra hilarious..yesterday i discovered the reason for me being a little bit whoops lately, but that's irrelevant. what i found out is that while being in the whoops mood/s i had said some things that i probably would not have let slip to certain people in my life otherwise..they weren't bad things at all; just personal feelings that i normally wouldn't have disclosed so openly, i guess.

i'm really glad that i did, though, and it made me realise that i shouldn't over-think things so much.

so, to go with my teacher's philosophy; the one thing that i'm going to try and eliminate from my life is the way i often hold back in saying what i'm really thinking. no matter what the consequences are of what i say, i'll at least know that the person in question will know what i'm really feeling.. surely this is the best option, even if it upsets them at first ? i hope so.

the one thing that i'm going to add to my life is spontaneity and more exercise.

- behold; the re-vamped rachel :)

also, i was talking to my sister last night on the phone and we were talking about what i might do next year; whether it will be uni or not. i think i'd really like to study speech pathology now, and not just bc of the biased fact that that's what she's studied for the past four or so years and has 110% talked it up..

i just really love that cool language stuff is combined with amazingly interesting anatomy-esque/human body goings-on and sciences, all in one job !

but more than anything, i can't wait to learn learn learn next year.. i really don't want to have a year off..i just want to fill my brain, haha. can't wait.

i honestly can't even begin to imagine how people can just settle for a corner-store job when they're 30-50 ish and not want to read the paper/s or care about what's going on in the world around them. i so hugely love learning new things, just finding out great new topics and people that this massive world has to offer is so amazing and intriguing to me.

i love the idea that middle-aged people go back to uni. i mean, they have their job and have studied for years, but still want to go back and learn more - to just read and learn and expand their knowledge.

there's a crazy boy in one of my classes, and he has whopper discussions with the teacher about the 4th dimension in chemistry or these immense scientific theories and books they've read, that i've never thought of or heard of in my life. he used to be in my english class and there too he'd always have a comment to add about something unknown and general knowledg-y about shakespeare or a literature that he's recently read.. some people get annoyed by his comments, but he intrigues the absolute shit out of me. i always listen to what he says and think 'wow' there's so much i don't know or haven't even considered ever before.

..and he has this huge hair - it's like the real life/male version of gretchen weiner - except his hair is full of crazy knowledge/intelligence instead of secrets. haha.

isn't this sweet, i'm still trying to work out 100% what it means:

'Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody. No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.'

the end.