the anatomy of procrastination.

hi ! so i've been having a spot or two of difficulty with my art project for school lately..i can't find an interesting medium to use, and its frustrating me no end..
i think i over-used a lot of sketching techniques last year; eg. charcoal, fine black pen, chalk pastels, pencil, etc etc, and so i feel like i can't do that again..but i keep being so inspired with images to create, and sketching is by far my easiest/quickest technique, so i dont know what do with myself.

the context of my project has proved difficult to explain to people thus far, but i'll try again..after all, my explaining skillz can surely only improve over time ?
its a really broad topic, we have to just..pfft 'JUST'..create 5-7 bodies of work that show either excess/restraint and convey a topic of our own choice.

mine revolve around the idea of our desire as humans to create these great façades; these 'fake' personalities and exteriors, if you will, for no reason other than to please or impress/fit the ideal mould/stand out/etc. this lack of showing true self is all a bit of a wild goose chase really, is it not ?
i mean, i've found through my own personal experience in grade 8-10 at school, that people have no interest in a fake exterior.. its all been seen before, and bores people to death, plus there's no fun in it for yourself..well there wasn't for me.
our true personalities and selves are what glow the most. to me there seems to be no point in trying to be someone that you are not - as horribly cliché as i'm afraid that sounds - purely because you will not succeed and feel happy within yourself in the long run.
i'm in my senior year of school this year, and i've seen people become more and more comfortable within themselves and their friends as the years have passed, and i've grown so much closer to so many gorgeous people, just because they've relaxed and dropped their guard and become more naturally lovely, as we've all learnt to become our true selves, finally. in grade nine especially, i was so caught up in trying to impress and make friends..i'd come from a tiny school to a huge ocean of people my age, and obviously wasn't ready for that confrontation. as soon as i grew more comfortable and started acting more like myself, i noticed that people were more interested in becoming friends with me..they actually liked who i was; they didn't mind the way i dresed, and the words that i used when i spoke. i was amazed.

for art, i've really wanted to incorporate imagery of human anatomy because i think it is just so so incredible. i've nooo idea what it is about anatomical images, sketches and photography that i find so fabulous, but its managed to work to my advantage, luckily, bc as i'm speaking of the beauty of humans/personalities stripped back to their most pure form, skeletal and anatomical images are really just pictures of humans that have been physically stripped back. i'd like to draw on x-ray images too, but don't know where i could get my hands on some without breaking some bones ?

i've started creating one sketch of a skeleton from the ribs up with flowers coming out of the top of the skull, eyes and nose, and weaving their way down the vertebrae.
god that sounds so morbid. maybe i'll scan a picture of it onto here to show that i'm not really as disturbed as i sound..but please dont judge me on this, its vvvv much unfinished..i promise.
the skeleton represents the obvious; the human form in its most basic form, and the flowers will hopefully portray across a sense of blooming and natural beauty.
circling the figure will be the words 'there is so much purity and subsequent beauty within the vessel that is the human body stripped back to its most basic form.'
i think i might have to edit that text a little and cut out some of the words..i always seem to make sentences far too long and ramble on..but i think that the phrase ~ sums up my idea.. ?
has any of this made sense ? please let me know..


i've been trying to whip up a wearable art piece or two on the same general topic, butttt its taken so much more time than i had realised, so i doubt i'll even get to finish it, bah.
oh the spicegirls' 'saturday night divas' just came on thanks to media player on shuffle, hahaha, im so happy now.
idea 1:

idea 2 ish:


here's some artists that i daresay i will draw some inspiration from in the near future; blu,

ben kruisdijk,

and mark weaver.