i haven't had a lot of wardrobe motivation lately, but i've been completely content in recycling the same pieces over and over. i haven't played with proportions or colour much. maybe it's just been due to the number of early starts that i've been having.
my accommodation's network is finally back up and running. today i downloaded some: Pavement, a Matt Corby EP, Band of Horses, Joy Division, Ella Fitzgerald, Elliott Smith, Portishead, Godspeed You! Black Emperor, Radiohead, Röyksopp, Sonic Youth, Elbow, Girl Talk, The Smiths, Thom Yorke..
and some movies including: The Road, Four Lions, A Beautiful Mind, Jesus Camp, Religulous, Restrepo, The Green Mile, Altered States, Hard Candy, The Da Vinci Code + Dead Poets Society, yay !
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it’s funny that senses can take you back to the past. i’ve been smelling a hint of castle or moss or other different childhood travel smells lately.. sometimes i can’t even pinpoint them at all, but at the time i definitely know that i have just experienced a smell linked to a distinct memory.
it’s the same with music / the sense of hearing.
yesterday i was reminded of the Temper Trap. i’m not sure how i had forgotten about them at all – they’re one of my favourite bands.. i suppose i’ve neglected music as a whole lately. after the re-discovery, i was listening to the song Soldier On.
it reminded me of a little bit of a dark stage two years ago. it was around the same time as QCS and other stressful year 12 times..or perhaps it was more around QCS practice tests, i can’t remember the specifics.. someone i know was feeling a bit lost within themselves, and i remember feeling so strange because the roles of authority between myself and this person had been almost entirely swapped – and i wasn’t ready for responsibility like that; i wanted to savour my last few months of ‘childhood’.
in year 12 Art at school + at the same time as the even above, i began to lack inspiration and motivation. this really surprised me. it still surprises, and confuses me. the subjects at school that i had always been most passionate about – Art, Music, English..even History - began to seem uninteresting. i ended up enjoying Maths and Chemistry / Science the most. i’m not sure if it was just a case of overkill; having been involved in + interested in all of those areas since early primary school, or not.
in Art, i grew bored. i put little effort in. i remember that for one assignment submission, at the same time as what was perhaps the worst of the dark ish stage, i sketched a number of charcoal images of my house – from different viewpoints + in different rooms, with lots and lots of shadows. i drew areas like corridors, and created fairly claustrophobic images. it was a really cliché representation of the way that i often felt trapped in my own house at that time. i remember listening to Soldier On (mentioned above) + Editors a lot.
i grew selfish – i didn’t want to deal with other people’s pains.
i’d never felt more lazy, primary-school-like + embarrassed by the ‘art’ that i was producing. + though i still received a good grade, it was probably only due to the symbolism waffling on that i produced alongside each piece.
this train of thought came out of nowhere. the end.
my accommodation's network is finally back up and running. today i downloaded some: Pavement, a Matt Corby EP, Band of Horses, Joy Division, Ella Fitzgerald, Elliott Smith, Portishead, Godspeed You! Black Emperor, Radiohead, Röyksopp, Sonic Youth, Elbow, Girl Talk, The Smiths, Thom Yorke..
and some movies including: The Road, Four Lions, A Beautiful Mind, Jesus Camp, Religulous, Restrepo, The Green Mile, Altered States, Hard Candy, The Da Vinci Code + Dead Poets Society, yay !
XXXXXXXXXX
it’s funny that senses can take you back to the past. i’ve been smelling a hint of castle or moss or other different childhood travel smells lately.. sometimes i can’t even pinpoint them at all, but at the time i definitely know that i have just experienced a smell linked to a distinct memory.
it’s the same with music / the sense of hearing.
yesterday i was reminded of the Temper Trap. i’m not sure how i had forgotten about them at all – they’re one of my favourite bands.. i suppose i’ve neglected music as a whole lately. after the re-discovery, i was listening to the song Soldier On.
it reminded me of a little bit of a dark stage two years ago. it was around the same time as QCS and other stressful year 12 times..or perhaps it was more around QCS practice tests, i can’t remember the specifics.. someone i know was feeling a bit lost within themselves, and i remember feeling so strange because the roles of authority between myself and this person had been almost entirely swapped – and i wasn’t ready for responsibility like that; i wanted to savour my last few months of ‘childhood’.
in year 12 Art at school + at the same time as the even above, i began to lack inspiration and motivation. this really surprised me. it still surprises, and confuses me. the subjects at school that i had always been most passionate about – Art, Music, English..even History - began to seem uninteresting. i ended up enjoying Maths and Chemistry / Science the most. i’m not sure if it was just a case of overkill; having been involved in + interested in all of those areas since early primary school, or not.
in Art, i grew bored. i put little effort in. i remember that for one assignment submission, at the same time as what was perhaps the worst of the dark ish stage, i sketched a number of charcoal images of my house – from different viewpoints + in different rooms, with lots and lots of shadows. i drew areas like corridors, and created fairly claustrophobic images. it was a really cliché representation of the way that i often felt trapped in my own house at that time. i remember listening to Soldier On (mentioned above) + Editors a lot.
i grew selfish – i didn’t want to deal with other people’s pains.
i’d never felt more lazy, primary-school-like + embarrassed by the ‘art’ that i was producing. + though i still received a good grade, it was probably only due to the symbolism waffling on that i produced alongside each piece.
this train of thought came out of nowhere. the end.
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